Many blogs got started the week that I took off but few were finished. After having finished a huge redesign of TIL I decided to take a break from blogging, it just so happened to coincide with my relationship issues.
From my last real post, it is safe for one deduce that I had a lot of thinking to do, mostly about what I wanted currently in my life.
MeTo walked me to the train, we chatted while waiting, and once on, I was surprised at how much I missed him. The idea of not seeing him whenever I wanted made my heart sink. I had told MeTo to just let me be and not to call me until I called him. He was being extremely patient and understanding, he even gave me money to spend while I was hanging out with my friends. He set the rules by saying this, “You can look but don’t touch, you can flirt but don’t go home, and if you get them to buy you a drink I want to hear about it because you’re saving me money.” I laughed and agreed.
My first stop once getting into Philadelphia was my mother’s job. I figured I would put my stuff in her car and then figure out where I would go next. Much to my surprise, we spent a lot of time talking about end of the world type stuff and religion. We did not argue or debate but shared views and used each other to gain a better understanding of current events and scriptures. We talked about other stuff as well and it was nice to, just talk to my mother like back in the day.
After leaving my mom, I decided to; just go to my mom’s house, once I was from underground on the El I called my aunt to see what she was up to and if she was up for a visit. Needles to say she was and I spent most of my Friday chatting it up with my grandmother and aunt.
A lot of the conversation with my aunt was spent talking about Mr. MeTo and how I was feeling about him and our relationship. I was surprised that I figured out that not only did I know where my life was going but also it was going where I wanted it to go.
When I got home that night, I talked to my mother about her night and hoped she would tell me about how she made new connections. It was a short conversation that ended with her telling me how she had fun and that was about it. As soon as I was alone in the middle room, I called MeTo. He was shocked to hear from me and I explained to him that I missed him as soon as the train started taking off. It was a brief conversation, as I had to get ready for my hearing the next day and he had stuff to do in the lab.
The next day I got up and hurried to my hearing for unemployment. It was a stressful long ride and it happened to be raining. I was dressed nice and as luck would have it missed the train that would have gotten me there on time. I called and I was told that word would be passed but no guaranties.
A train ride bottle of coke a phone conversation with Jay and a bus ride later, I made it to be only 20 min late. I walked inside and much to my surprise when I walked into the room; there was no one from traction. I was slightly pissed. This was just a mean way of them trying to save a buck. To add insult to injury they even had a nerve to had submitted crappy evidence. I won my case hands down.
On the way out, I chatted with the referee who was nice and she told me she was ruling in my favor and would try to get things to move quickly.
MeTo called as I was waiting for my bus and I told him I won but had bad reception and would call him latter. A bus ride, a long wait, a train ride, a conversation with Jay, an el ride and two soft pretzels I was finally back in Delco and in a car with Jay.
It was the first night of the World Series and we were headed to our friend Sam’s. On the way, I get to see Erica, the same one that introduced me to jay and I had not seen since. Once at Sam’s, we watched harry potter, drank ginger ale and passed one Dutch for each point the Philly’s got. Needles to say it was the highest I had ever gotten. First chance I got I went home and slept it off.
The rest of the week was boring with a few sad attempts at trying to write. I decided to go see my aunt and grandmother again and on my way, I forced to deal with the one thing I had been trying to deal with on my own and in my own way, my relationship with MeTo.
He sent me a text telling me something along the lines of how we would be fine, it read dramatic and the situation needed us not to be so dramatic.
The first thing I said to my aunt when I got to her house was, “I might have to breakup with ‘MeTo’.” Her reaction was don’t and then she asked why. I gave her the rundown of what we were dealing with, how I felt about it, how I wanted to deal with it and how he was dealing with it. We talked in detail over the night and she gave me some sound advice and of course like everyone that has met MeTo told me to stay with him.
To be honest while I entertained the thought and may have made my mouth move to speak the words, breaking up was never an option in my mind or heart. Just as I, my aunt went up stairs for a moment my phone rang. It was MeTo and he told me he was coming to Philly so we could discuss things. I had just made y mind that I would be coming home Sunday and as soon as I got back I would discuss everything with him. However, as he was telling me and not really asking I just went along.
I remember feeling slightly angry, how dare he come down and put a halt to my me time. I needed this week to get my head together. Yet I still allowed it. I made up some excuse as to why I had to get off the phone and told m aunt what had just happened. She thought to be a good idea and asked what I thought I had to admit she was right, I have to hand it to aunt LAB she has a way of making me see the light.
I went home, laid out my outfit for Friday, and chatted with my mother. I got on my laptop and began to try and writ again but the week proved that it was pointless. I would either be interrupted when my phone would ring or my emotions get the best of me and I would slip into LaLa land. So ended up surfing the net until the early morning when I just fell asleep.
I spent most of Friday chatting with my sister and reminiscing about the times when it was nice to shut out the world and just be not only her big brother but also her best friend. I went to get ready and just as I was about to head out the door my mother got home from work and she noticed I had on makeup. I tried to half lie but she refused to let me out the house. It was all in fun but it was still a little annoying.
I got of the El in CC at 6:30 but MeTo had been waiting for almost a half hour as he got to Philly earlier than he thought. We decided on a German restaurant and while the food was great, the conversation was a little strong for my taste. We did come to a better understanding of each other and all issues were dealt with.
(To Be Continued. . . )
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