It you ever want to incur my wrath let me find out you lied to me and that your lie caused heartache and or pain along with wasted time.
My Mr. M has proven that he is not worthy of my friendship. I could be over reacting but from the looks of things there is a new guy in his life. This Mr. Hickey. I found out the worse way possible. Stopping by the mall to take care of some business I decided to also stop by and say hi. He even made a point to text me and ask if I had walked past his store with out saying hi in a hurry.
I came back as I had planned when I finished taking care of my business to say hi. It was nice to see that the red hair was gone and that he was in a good mode. That should have been clue one as to what I was to find out. He appeared to be avoiding me for some reason to the point I almost left without saying hi.
Then I introduced him to my sister and we started talking. I had to ask what happened to his neck, he was wearing a fairly large band aid. I knew immediately what it was but still needed to hear it from him. I laughed as he shyly said a hickey. I pretend to be happy for him and asked if that was as far as it went. I didn't know I had a preferred answer but when he said they did go farther my heart sank. I wanted to ask more like I do with all my friends but felt it was an inappropriate place.
I went for some retail therapy and felt much better. It gave me a fuck the world kind of attitude.
Then last night he really proved every thought I had about the two of us. I texted him in hopes to get a convo going so I could stay up at work. When I asked what he was doing he then told me he was with his friend. What friend I inquired and he said his real name but i'll stick with Mr. Hickey.
How could this be from the man ,if you can call him that, who admittedly demands perfection, who said he needs time to find himself to figure out what he wants. Who said the only reason we broke up was because he was not over hie ex.
How should I feel the man who told him how I felt and that I hoped to get back together. For a year now he has told me this and that about me he likes this and hates that. Wish I was this glad I am that, many times contradicting himself. Instead of just saying your not my type he gives me some coke and bull story about how he needed to get over his ex and that we should stay friends, what dose that sound like to you? It was false hope and he knew it from the beginning. That pill poppin coward alcoholic fagot and now lier.
And now that I took a year to get over my broken heart which would have been sooner had he been honest from the beginning I want my revenge. No one plays with my emotions and gets off Scot free.
The only thing that may save him is the guy that I am falling for now he is my main priority. We are taking things moderately yet quick enough for each other. The more we learn about each other makes us stronger and more attracted. Everything I had been looking for flawed honest and wanting to love and be loved. Much like me he is protecting his heart but entertaining the thought that this could be it.
So in the mean time I will continue to act civil. But Mr.M needs to beware he has secured a meeting with Titus Sheldon.
