A Resolution

I have decided after reviewing last year and several episodes of my favorite TV shows that this year's resolution would be a simple one of two parts.

Last year I quite smoking, I stopped smoking social pot and learned how to have a good time with little or no alcohol. This year I need to appreciate my friends more, and be more open and honest with them. I know sometimes Jay may get mad and yell but as his best friend I really need to step up to the plate and be the one that tells him the truth no matter how much he may disagree and get angry.

My mom may think that I prance around Sodom and Gomorra, but I have been there and left. I have always known what I wanted out of life, the whole fabulous, well off, in love, surrounded by friends. But as to how to achieve it I was at a loss. I am a loyal person; I have changed and stopped wasting time on guys who don't appreciate me. I even learned how to exploit those who hurt me. I learned a lot from last year, and its time I start putting my knowledge into practice.

Now that Mr. M is no longer Mr. M, he has no power over my heart and if he wants too be friends I have left it not in his hands but in the hands of his actions. No more letting him, or anyone for that matter, use my kindness to better themselves without anything in return. No more dating guys who get what they want but never deliver on what I want. I will no longer hold onto people who don't want to keep me in their lives.

I may wonder how someone can be happy with me then throw it away like Mr. M and Jazz, or say that they want what I want but never fight for it, like Ramón and Damian. But they are my past, and there is no need fretting over the past.

My future consist of fabulous good times, going to new places and returning home to my friends and the man who is going to sweep me off my feet. I am going to work heard towards my goal of three and cultivating friends ships with those who put forth effort.

It's not a year of great things just happening it's a year of me and my friends seeing a return on our investments. Jason and I will have those fabulous jobs we want. My credit and driving record will return to good standing and I will become quite independent like I was back in 2006.

My Resolution is to pay more attention to my REAL friends and focus on getting my dream life.

I started my adult life three years ago and lots has changed, but it was all for the best.

So long 2008 and HELLO 2009

2008 proved to be a dynamic and stressful year not only for those attached to LifeStorms, but the entire country, With the US falling into a recession, the stock market plummeting and the passing of Proposition 8. However there was a light at the end of the tunnel when the United States took a stand and elected its first black president Mr. Barack Obama.

The year although a not so good one ended with hope for many with the government trying to work hard to protect current jobs and trying to save companies that are vital to the economy.

While the country was going through its trials and tribulations my life and all those involved were going through theirs as well.

The year started like most years me at a party, toasting in the New Year with friends no man in my life and thanking God that I made it out of another year alive. I really had no plans for the new year just to get my life together but it would seam fate had something else on its agenda.

Things started to pick up after my car was reposed, and I was mugged on my way home one night, and my best friends and roommate called off their wedding.

I switched jobs at EDU so that when the time came I could return to school full time. But that never happened. I was fired in mid march and had to focus on finding income and something to do with my spare time. At the same time my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer and was told she would have to undergo an extremely invasive procedure.

I refused to let it get me down I still had a party for my 22nd birthday and invited all my friends from EDU and my gang. To my surprise my gang did not show and only a few people from work showed, but party hard we did. One of the people who really was helping me through this hard time decided not to come, My friend Matt who only a month ago had broken up with his fiancé, my roommate.

I was still dealing with Mr. M and the emotional rollercoaster he had me on. It had been a year of parties one of which my best friend Jazz made a total fool of herself by drinking to the point of black out and acted as if she lost her mind completely. At our birthday party she did control herself.

I had decided to move in with my mother to help her do the things that needed to be done while she was recovering from surgery. It was hard for all of us. I had to deal with her depression and pickiness in everything and she had to deal with body altering surgery.

After I chose to move out my mother found out my sister was no angel, my mother found my sister and her boyfriend on the couch in a very unholy position, I would imagine missionary. My sister made it to graduation in one piece and my mother was depressed because she could not throw the party she had planned.

Job interview after interview and from Home Depot I found UAS, an alarm company, which came right before forth of July.

I had slept with Louis and decided to start dating him despite what his ex boyfriend, Jason said. Jay way supportive and everything a best friend should be. After the family barbecue we went down to see the fireworks which ended not so well with jay and I fighting over something stupid. We made up shortly after. It was odd for Phil as he was the only single one, Jason and Clinton, Jazz and Tristan, Me and Louise, and Phil was alone.

The summer proved to be on crazy event after the other with me finally confronting Mr. M. the break up of Louis and I, Jason finding out that dating younger is not always easy and Jazz breaking up with Tristan. I then from guy to guy never getting serious or too close, no whore or slutty business, which left a lot of guys totally disappointed. I remained true to my self and knew what I wanted.

UAS proved to be much like EDU in its racy sense of humor and openness. But when they found out I was thinking about leaving it was short lived.

I had decided mid august that I would try to get into modeling, and after almost completing my intro courses figured I would move to NYC, I had to leave Chester anyway. My roommate had a bad year and after a bad dating experiences; she was trying to figure out if she would sell the house or rent it completely.

After trying to move with Louis I figured it was best not to. His roommate took advantage of him then kicked him out while he was at work. I helped him move to south Philly with his friend.

After weighing my options I called Jazz and we decided that my plan sounded good and it was finalized that I was moving to NYC. While in NYC for an interview UAS decided to let me go. I moved a week later and three days after that I started working at another central station.

I met a few guys, had some laughs but my roommate decided to make my life hell, my friends warned me it was going to happen. So after discussing it with my mother and friends I packed my car and left back for Philadelphia, she decided to end the friendship and to try and keep the stuff that I left there. This is one thing that is still not over.

After moving back I partied hard thanks to Jason. I tried one last time to make something with Ramón, which failed.

Job interview after job interview led me to bad job after bad job and I finally got my break all the way around. After celebrating Mr. M’s Birthday with a few of his friends and the ex before me I saw that Mr. M was never going to change. All feelings for that ass hole were gone. I was 100% free.

I made a connection with two guys Mr. New York and Mr. New Jersey. Mr. New York became my boss when he offered me the job as personal assistant at a modeling agency, and Mr. New Jersey became Mr. MeTo when we started dating.

I rung in the New Year 2009 with Mr. MeTo and my friend Alex, I had a lot of fun and a really good kiss from a guy that is truly NOT a waste of time.