So today is my sister’s birthday and I am on my way to Philly. It’s kind of funny how I can relate my life more to SATC than Noah arc and I am a gay black man and not a rich middle aged white woman. They reason I say this is because my heart lies in Philadelphia and I moved away to be closer to the man I love. Much like Samantha did for smith. And the longer I am in New Brunswick the more I am finding excuses to get back to Philly. It’s not that I am unhappy with new Brunswick or the relationship I am in its just that I know Philly and can’t help but allow myself to get drawn back to the place I love, the one place that will always be home no matter how long I am gone.
So today’s excuse is a double birthday. As I have said before I love my verges and not only do I date them I am related to several. My sister’s birthday starts of the string of verge birthdays with a bang as she shares it with my other mother Brenda. So I talked to MeTo and he agreed that I should go and visit. So off I am going.
Naturally I called every member of my crew to inform them of my arrival and good thing I did as I now will get picked up from 30th St train station and not have to take septa.
The 15th is also a day of reflection. It’s an odd time in my life where many ends meet many beginnings. I tend to make and loose friends in September I tend to get a good view of the direction my life is going to for the rest of the year and while things look grim I am waiting and hoping to see signs of good things coming my way. It is kind of a coincidence. The most important of the Jewish holidays take place in September on of which makers the Jewish New Year. How fitting that September has always been the beginning of good new things for me.
Now I can’t help but think about how many times I typically would think about the future on my sister’s birthday. Asking myself would she be rich, find a nice guy, how many kids might she have and how would all of this effect birthdays in the future. Now I think about how birthdays past were so much simpler, a cake and a present would mean the world and now it’s become mediocre and something to avoid.
Anyone that he seen my sister interact, whether it be on the phone or in person know we absolutely love each other and would do all in our power to see the other happy. And now it’s not as simple. When you young you live with your sister and think nothing will drag you apart and then you both start to grow up and move to different places. You start to date and quality time is hard to come by. But we know that nothing can change our memories we share and the inside jokes that no matter how hard we try no one else understand.
The love of two siblings like my sister’s and mine cannot be tarnished. In our teen years we have done some crappy things to one another and while we know they were crappy we barely remember what they were as we have no reason to. If there is any person you can apply forgive and forget to it should be you siblings. If they truly love you each time they hurt you will hurt them more and no one likes hurting themselves.
Few people I trust with my life and darkest secrets but she is one. So for my sister being the epitome of an awesome little sister despite she ain’t so little any more I wish her a happy birthday, our teen years are officially behind us.
