Life is ever evolving no matter who you are. The things and
people in it that matter to you can change in an instant from Jazz, Jaiye and a
life in Manhattan to Icon, Qhoiyn and a Gayborhood socialite. From Philly, to
New York, to New Jersey and back I have been in the search of one thing, true
love.
It was my hope to be like Carrie Bradshaw and write about my
life and all the craziness that took place, to find my mister big and have a
happy ending but several charter comparisons and self-adjustments later I have
realized that I cannot be compared to anyone else. So I created my own persona.
My name is Vixc-B 27 years old and I am a blogger, a
cookbook writer, a chef and a hopeless romantic. I am amazed at how I look back
to see that there have been many amazing chapters in my life and while the
largest and most emotional has recently closed I am looking forward to what is
coming next.
Some will tell you that you cannot have it all, but look
around you. In the Gayborhood on television, in newspapers there are people who
are living it up in the now. Sure it may not seem that they have it all but are
they happy and allowing themselves to live life? Of course they are, they get
the most important thing, they know, “That life is a banquet and most poor
suckers are starving to death.” To awake each morning and toast to life is
having it all. And the day when love comes and you get that great job and you
see that you had fun along the way you will agree as well that having it all is
possible.
I have made and lost friends. I have had great lovers and
mean lovers. My style has evolved. I have accepted my body type and take more
pride in showing it off. I have had awesome jobs and sucky jobs. The thing that
gets me through all the bad times is the joy that I get having lived when I could.
Tomorrow is not promised although it may feel like it. Never say or do tomorrow
what could be done today, tomorrow has its own problems and you can only deal
with what is in front of you now.
So I am making a proclamation and promise for myself before
all my readers, fans, friends and family. I will not allow the things that I want
from life to alter who I am, I will no longer be willing to adjust me to make
me fit into the box of what I or others hold up as the gay fantasy, or in hopes
that it will make my dreams easier to obtain. I will take pride in who I am and
the person I am on the road to becoming. I will achieve my goals for this year
and live each day trying to make myself and G-d proud.
In Short I will just be happy and Me!
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