Every now and then you experience moments that exhilarate you
and remind you that you are alive. Sometimes they are near death experiences
and sometimes they are simply moments that are so joyous that you cannot help
but stop and reflect on how awesome life is. While there are moments that
remind you that you are alive there are also moments that remind you that you
are all grown up and that you are in fact an adult. This Mothers’ Day was filled
with those moments.
To be honest with you my entire life for the past few week
has been a smorgasbord of moments that have made me stop and realize that I am
growing up at an alarming rate and that I may in fact want just a few more
moments as a child to reflect and think about it all.
Today I found out that one of best friends is going to have
a baby. She had been keeping it a secret for a really good time and today the
jig was up. I went to see here and as I listened to her explain her reasons for
not divulging such information and how she felt about everything I was easy to
understand. The shocker was simply the fact that none of us thought she was
doing anything where she could get pregnant which led us all to ignore the elephant
in the room.
Mother’s Day was all sunshine and rainbows. My mother
requested that I go to church with here and so I requested off from work and
made myself available. We arrived late and all my time spent was helping to set
up for dinner and then leading the team with serving. It was a great time,
everyone laughed at my jokes and the jokes I heard were all worth a good chuckle.
The day progressed with stops here and there, a shoe store
for my mother, then to see my father’s mother, then to see my eldest aunt. My grandmother
talked about my late uncle and father and I was shocked to find out that my
aunt had stayed in New Jersey with here girlfriend. I sent a text to all my aunts
cousins who are mothers and called my ex in-laws. I got to chat with my former
mother in-law for a bit and assured here that everything in my life was going
great which was the truth and she told me a little bit about her day. As if by
magic a few moments latter Doctor MeTo sent me a text.
Walking home I noticed that the entire day consisted of the
time old elephants in rooms with people who refused to acknowledge it. My best
friend was pregnant and showing yet none of us decided to ask. My cousin and
the mother of his child were having a fight and still no one said a word. At church
it is obvious I am gay yet everyone acted like they could not see the obvious
and focused on other attributes of my personality. I have admitted to MeTo several
times I am having trouble forgiving him and he continues to text me as if
nothing is wrong.
Why is it that adults ignore the obvious and never speak up
when a single word will ease tension and create an environment that is more
welcoming and fun? Children “see” everything and questions what they do not
understand but once they grow up they are taught to refrain from questioning
for fear of offending.
So tonight I sent MeTo a text asking him if we were going to
continue ignoring the elephant in the room and he chose not to respond so I am
taking it as a yes. The thing about an elephant in a room is that they eventually
move and when they do, it results in damage. I have had enough damage done in
my life from simply not speaking up and so I am calling the zookeeper on this
elephant, MeTo has got to go.
